As of today, I have officially spent a full month living away from home. I never saw myself moving away from Malawi – for long or otherwise.
It was never in my plans nor desires. It feels weird (a good kind of weird) to call this place home, and I still shake at the idea sometimes.
Iโm finding my footing, making home in this new land. Maybe itโs for a little while. Maybe this place will love me for longer. Maybe Malawi will call me back. Iโm taking each day as it comes, holding on to every inch of sanity on my path, and trusting the Universe.
For now, hereโs a few details that give me stillness, and below some words; the little things making my world at the moment alright –
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As you set out for Ithaka
hope your road is a long one,
full of adventure, full of discovery.
Laistrygonians, Cyclops,
angry Poseidonโdonโt be afraid of them:
youโll never find things like that on your way
as long as you keep your thoughts raised high,
as long as a rare excitementstirs your spirit and your body.
Laistrygonians, Cyclops,
wild Poseidonโyou wonโt encounter them
unless you bring them along inside your soul,
unless your soul sets them up in front of you.
Hope your road is a long one.
May there be many summer mornings when,
with what pleasure, what joy,
you enter harbors youโre seeing for the first time;
may you stop at Phoenician trading stations
to buy fine things,
mother of pearl and coral, amber and ebony,
sensual perfume of every kindโ
as many sensual perfumes as you can;
and may you visit many Egyptian cities
to learn and go on learning from their scholars.
Keep Ithaka always in your mind.
Arriving there is what youโre destined for.
But donโt hurry the journey at all.
Better if it lasts for years,
so youโre old by the time you reach the island,
wealthy with all youโve gained on the way,
not expecting Ithaka to make you rich.
Ithaka gave you the marvelous journey.
Without her you wouldn’t have set out.
She has nothing left to give you now.
And if you find her poor, Ithaka wonโt have fooled you.
Wise as you will have become, so full of experience,
youโll have understood by then what these Ithakas mean.
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– C. P. Cavafy