I am listening to Cindy Lauper’s ‘Time After Time‘ as I write this.
The above information has no relevance whatsoever to the article I am writing today. I just happen to Love the song. What a timeless jam. Time after time.
Hey loves,
It’s exactly 10PM as I write this. I am feeling a lot of things tonight. I can’t seem to place the exact feelings at the moment. Feelings are such random things. For the longest time, I have felt the need to discontinue (/temporarily pause) the publication and sharing of “By The End Of Your Teens”.
As an individual, I have evolved a lot since I wrote and published By The End of Your Teens. What was a well-meaning, and very honest body of work, I am not sure I can fully stand by anymore.
When I wrote the book, I was Christian, and my very writing of the book was heavily influenced by my Christian background. I am still very spiritual, but I am no longer Christian.
I will need to sit down, and spend a few months reviewing the book, to ensure it is honest; but also true to what I stand for at the moment.
Additionally, a good lot of my views and perceptions on a lot of things have changed. I feel I get wiser by the day, and the more I learn – the more I am scared of what I don’t know.
That is the very reason I am scared of writing at the moment, because for me – it is not about just writing, and delivering a finished body of work. It was never about the money. This is my life’s work, and I would wish to be certain that it is good from me, and good for those who encounter it. I would love to create pieces of work, which I am able to stand by, time after time.
So maybe I will publish the book again, or maybe I won’t. And maybe I will write By The End Of Your Twenties, or maybe I won’t. One thing is certain – I will write again; and when I do, it will be raw, and it will be beautiful.
May I take this moment to thank all of you who ever purchased a copy, and I am grateful to all of you who continue to demand more copies of it. I am hopeful that soon, I will be able to share with you a version I will be certain will be able to stand the test of time.
All my love,
Ntha
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Time after time… Things change. Times change. People change. As time goes and Ntha grows, she’s only bound to be richer in ideas and scope. I therefore believe that you will write “By The End of Your Twenties” in about four years to come. I hope life will keep bringing you the peace you’re searching for as you do more soul-searching and experience self-relevation. I can’t wait to see what the lady has in store for us. The gratitude votes were awesome, Lizzie.
Thanks Abraham. I hope I get past the fear of my ignorance, and gather enough courage to publish again soon