The idea of tying the year 2020 to gratitude seems like such a stretch; but I also know that not everybody has had an entirely horrible year.
I’m looking back at the year that has been, and I do believe I have a lot to be grateful for – both personally and professionally.
Hey loves,
If you are new here, my name is Nthanda L. Manduwi, and I am a digital entrepreneur from Malawi, Africa. I try to find complex topics and simplify them so we can have progressive conversation around them.
The year 2020 is coming to an end, and I am reflecting on the year that has been. I am sharing with you my very brief gratitude list for 2020:
1. The World Digitised!
Most digital entrepreneurs will tell you that we have had a fairly better business year than most – because the world went extremely digital.
The pandemic has been a horrible thing for the world at large – and I have experienced a terrible case of burn out, but the one good thing that has come out of it is the intense digitisation of the world, which in my personal business plans I had thought would take no less than 5 years.
For that, and for my business, for all my (new and old) clients and partners, and the plans I have for the year ahead, I am extremely grateful.
2. I am childless!
A basic thing to celebrate, but worth celebrating still in my books.
In 2018, I had plans of getting married to my best friend and possibly the only man I have truly loved, and having children together – you know following the idea of how society says life should go.
Life happened, and things did not turn in favor of my/our plans. We are still the best of friends – and have come to learn so many things about each other. I am inclined to believe they worked in favor of me, however – in the grand scheme of things, as we are both unsure we even want to have children.
I am 25, yet I still feel like quite a child myself. I am still healing so many past traumas, and I cannot assure you that I could (can) ever make a good mother. I suppose time will tell, but in this moment, I am grateful.
3. Lessons In Love
I have loved love since I was a little girl. Blame that on watching one too many fairytales. I have evolved so much, and as I continue to learn and unlearn – my views on a lot of things continue to change.
I am 25, and, for the first time in what feels like a fairly long decade, single. I actually did not think I would ever be saying I am single in my life again, but here we are. I have been single for a month or so now. I have come to realise I have so much work to do on myself as an individual, so much so that I have decided to learn to be content in being alone, before I can re-engage, and be fully with another again.
Still, love is a beautiful thing, and I have no gutwrenching story of love lost. my most recent experience has been from friends, to lovers, to friends. My partner and I will continue to be best friends, and business partners. We are just not romantically involved right now. There’s still (and maybe always will be) a lot of love there, and I am so grateful I have been, and continue to be loved. I am just figuring out what my future will look like, and working on being a wholesome individual who, if I decide to love (romantically) again, can love wholly while still maintain the self.
4. Selfishness
An odd thing to be grateful for, but I am grateful for the opportunity to be selfish, and to choose me. I have detached myself from a lot things and a lot of people this year. I am learning to be selfish with who I give myself, and my time to. On the same, I know if I ever do have children, I will lose that privilege, so I am revelling in this moment.
6. Financial Stability
Financial stability is such a key thing in life. I know when I had just moved out my parents’ home, I went through a year of depression – and I did not even realise that most of that was attributed to the financial instability in my life. 20s can be such a mess – so in this moment I am grateful that I am able to do good work that manages to get my bills paid.
6. My Home
Have you seen this house? Seriously. This is my dream home – and I don’t mean this in comparison to anyone’s dreams besides my own. I spent most of my teen years watching Hannah Montana, and I used to LOVE the little home in that show. I remember dreaming about having a double-storey house, with an open kitchen and living area situation. It may not be the most flamboyant thing to most, but it is my dream home. I love it! I am grateful.
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7. Peace
I am grateful for peace. I have found peace. I am still unlocking new levels to that peace. I am grateful to have found it, and I am looking forward to an even more peaceful 2021.
All my love,
Ntha
P.s. I discontinued the publication of my first book “By The End Of Your Teens”. Here is why.
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It with a different gratitude I read this personal talk. I have looked at it from my inclination and I can say 2020 hasn’t been as horrible as some of the Earth’s dwellers have experienced it —and for that we’re grateful. Ntha, your optimism is something to savour. Inspiring.
Appreciated, Abraham ♥️